april fool's baby

this morning i made a facebook status update that just said, "sharon 'senser' mckellar is preggers" figuring no one would believe me for a second, given that it's april fool's day. a lot of people believed me and then my guilty guilt guilt came out and i admitted it was a joke within mere minutes. i am not strong. i am weak.

anyhow, ian and i decided that if the timing works out at all when i eventually do get pregnant, we will wait until april fool's day (or announce early) so that i can announce it just like that and everyone will assume it's a joke. so there's your warning. let's see if you remember.

dreaming

last night i had another dream about being pregnant. i think that when i have a certain kind of low level stomach ache, my brain always translates that as pregnancy in my sleep.

i remember when the switch happened - when my pregnancy dreams went from something i was totally relieved to wake up from to something that cause me great disapointment come morning. i wake up feeling empty.

anyhow, i used to always picture having a baby girl, but in my dreams it's always a boy. so now i sort of picture a boy.

i'm hoping this blog will serve as a sort of healthy release of these feelings and also, eventually, a fun place to post what i'm going through with the process and with my child.

for now, i'm happy to wait. well, i'm sort of happy to wait. ian, my husband, and i are taking a great journey around the world. and it's going to be amazing for us. so the baby time will come. i just have to teach my body to be as patient as i'm forcing my brain to be.

the ghost of babies past

my friend, amy, suggested that i use this blog now for all baby-related stuff so that when i have a baby, finally, in 2 years, it'll all be here. in one place.

so, i thought i'd start with photos of me and babies past!

me. 1975.

my cousin, gail's oldest, alyssa. this is seriously like 9 years ago. but look how cute she was! she still is!

megan and jon's baby, wyatt. this was over a year ago now. i miss these guys!

i met this random baby in october and never saw him again.

darren and krista's baby, cooper when he was about a week old.

my family's lifetime friend, adam's baby drew.

ian's cousin, laurian's baby jayden.

tami and christine's twin baby girls - amelia and eloise.

coming soon

when i get pregnant (or am trying to get pregnant) i'll use this blog. just needed to snag the name!